Ask and You Shall Receive
I woke up this morning and prayed for God to help me. Before I left my office for lunch today, I posted a blog asking for help. You see, I’m struggling on the road to recovery and I need help. I realize that when left to my own devices, I drink. I just can’t do this without the support of others.
When I returned from lunch, I needed a little kick in the ass. My previous post left me feeling a little sad, a little lonely. So, I went over to Holly Whitaker’s blog because I could use some of her feisty spirit in my day. And what the fuck did I find? The answer to my prayers!
Seriously.
Just like that.
Holly has teamed up with Tammi Salas to offer a 40 day e-mail program to help those of us trying to do this sobriety thang. The best part? It’s only $35! I have been wanting to join Holly’s Hip Sobriety school since I first read about it, but I can’t afford it at this point in my life. But now? Now I can get a daily dose of wisdom and support from Holly and Tammi, a consistent program to keep me focused on my path for 40 days. Squeeeeee! Here’s a blurb from Holly’s blog:
Someone pinch me. I cannot wait until tomorrow morning! Is 3 o’clock in the afternoon too early to go to bed?
Non-negotiables
Just yesterday, I read a blog post by Laura McKowen about Non-negotiables. The post is lovely and I recommend reading it in full. The idea is that everyone should have daily or, at least, regular, habits, rituals, etc. that aid in living a spiritually, physically and mentally healthy life. We should carve out time for ourselves and not feel guilty about it.
I totally agree.
I don’t have any non-negotiables, but I’ve been thinking about what mine will be, about what I need. If drinking has taught me anything it’s that I’m a creature of habit. So, it makes sense that I should create some new, healthy habits to aid in my recovery. Without further ado, here are my work-in-progress non-negotiables:
Prayer: I mentioned in my previous post that I didn’t grow up praying. It’s not something I’ve ever really done, but thanks to the suggestion of someone in AA I have myself a very simple prayer for every morning when I wake up and every night when I go to bed. I’ll ask God every morning, “please help me” and when I get through a day without drinking I’ll send up a very robust “thank you!”
Daily Mantra: I’m going to carve out time right after I wake-up and pray to reflect on the daily mantra that will be provided by Holly and Tammi’s e-mail course mentioned above. I’m hoping that the daily mantras will lead me to…
Write: Whether the writing is good or bad, whether I post something or not, I want to write every day. I find writing cathartic. Writing makes me feel more connected even if no one ever sees it. My words are out there in the universe and, as I’ve seen today, sometimes the universe responds.
AA Meetings: I will continue to attend AA meetings. I think I’m going to try out some new meetings and go to the ones that really resonate with me.
Hydrate: I have an issue with weight that I hope to resolve at someone point, but in the beginning of recovery I’m going to give myself a little leeway. Not drinking takes priority over losing weight. For now. However, I know that I need to introduce some sort of healthy body-related habit and that’s going to be getting enough water. I am terrible at keeping hydrated. (Isn’t that so strange for a recovering alcoholic?) This seems to be something small and easy that I know I can stick with.
There you have it! My non-negotiables. What are yours? Do you practice them daily?